Be Scared But Do It Anyway
Have you ever done something so scary that you didn't want to see the downfall of it? You just felt like it wasn't worth the risk?
When I got married, I was promised that I would still be able to pursue my dreams even if we moved to another city. That promise fell apart pretty quickly and I found myself living a life that I not only did not want but didn't sign up for. Every time that I tried to make my own moves towards living my dream, they were squashed. My ex's family was very religious, and I wasn't even getting any support from them. I was supposed to be a wife and a support system for my husband and that was it. I couldn't reach beyond that because now I had these responsibilities and expectations of me.
The problem with that mindset is that if you push a strong woman down long enough, she's going to come back fiercer and angrier, more willing to go after what she wants.
I was taught growing up not to depend on a man for anything. To always be able to pay my own bills, do my own thing, and there I was away from my family and friends, starting over completely and unable to do what I wanted with my life. I felt duped and betrayed.
When I got divorced, I promised myself that I was going to do all the things that I wanted. From now on, I would be living life on my terms, and no one was going to stop me from going after my dreams.
So, fear has certainly been a part of my life because I've had to make some leaps in my life, and I was doing them all by myself. I've spent most of my life alone and far away from my family. The decisions I've made whether good or bad were done on my own. But I believe that fear is good because it protects us and it's okay to feel that fear if we don't allow it to stop us from moving beyond our comfort zone.
I've done a ton of things that terrified the hell out of me, but they brought me to a place of success and happiness. It's okay to be scared, it's okay to be unsure of the decisions that you make. Just don't let it stop you from having the best possible life that you can have.
I've taught my daughter the same lessons in life, to go after her dreams with her entire heart and soul. That's what I want for everyone. I believe that’s why she’s so willing to trust me with her happiness.
When I chose to pick up and travel with my child, I did it because it WAS scary. I know scary, I've been through hell and back in my life, but I also know that greatness is not achieved in the comfort zone. I was terrified every step of the way of making this change for my daughter and me, but it was breathtaking in its "rightness." I CAN do this. I knew that and it was the best decision that I ever made.